Reb Yeruchum on the Significance of Sincerity in Judaism

The mood was serious. The morning began rather calm, but it definitely felt like a calm before the storm. As to set the scene, it is less than a hundred years ago, in the building of Yeshiva's Mir, on Rosh Hashanah morning, when the Bukhrim are now steadily finding their seats, jostling for position to prepare for Rosh Hashanah Da'van'i. As per the custom, the Bukhrim would travel back even after they graduated from Yeshiva's Mir to hear Shmuzin and Da'van in the proximity of the great mirror Mashkiach and spiritual deen during the roaring 20s, maran HaGoyin, hagodolah Mashkiach, rabbi Yerukhum Levavets, zichrona Levach. But on that morning Rabbi Yerukhum was found doing something funny. It has to do with our partial Abahar. One of the lions of the mirror saw Rabbi Yerukhum and overheard him in his office murmuring and muttering to himself meditating on a verse of Ulayyimusheni Avivayisi Beinav Kimisaatea Khavzayan Yodbeis that maybe my father will feel me in the discover that really I'm not Yaakov. This is when Rivka told Yaakov to go and dress up and put on the animal skin, the fur, to feel like Asav. And now here this is Asav, where Yaakov kind of pretending and he's fearful. Maybe my dad will figure me out after he feels that it's not really me and therefore I'm going to be caught in a… Perhaps I'll be like a mockery in his eyes. How would Yerukhum say this? After one of the Bukhrim asked him, yerukhum said because the whole year I busy myself to give the shmuz and the discourses to coax people to do better. I preach these lessons but I'm scared. Perhaps now that I am in such close proximity to Hashem, perhaps he will feel me and he will see that I'm not genuine or authentic. Perhaps my father will feel me and he will see that it's not really me and my actions aren't authentic. It's an intense story for a very, very large person, but the idea I feel still is very applicable for us, for the integrity and authenticity in Judaism is timeless. The goal is very much to do Tyra, but to have also our Pev a Liby Shava, to be fully authentic about the ideas the Tyra, liby Baina we pray. So that would be that we open up our hearts as we continue to talk Tyra and do mitzvahs, and we do them authentically, with intention, with devotion, lest God forbid Vayisi baina of Kimisa teah. This is a powerful lesson that the great Rebi Rukham taught us.